thisfatefulhour: (Patrick's Rune)
lords of vows and lords of truth
lords of mind and lords of earth
sing we of the wandering youth
sing we of the coming birth
does it call for tears or mirth?

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lords of todash, lords of over
lords of where and lords of when
all the roads that lead the rover
come from here, and back again
say alleluia, say amen

***

lords of autumn, lords of bonfire
lords of nighttime, dark and deep
red o'er white to light to pyre
'fore the winter's long, long sleep
say ya charyou: come, reap

***

lords a-walla, come-commala
lords a-rivva, green the grass
come a-alla, rice a-folla
lady 'riza only as'
may it do ya, dance the da'ce
thisfatefulhour: (Academy: you've gotta serve somebody)
If we take everything's that's already happened at Milliways -- including, most importantly, the trip to Taos -- as having happened, there has to be a damn good reason for Charles to end up in the Academy. Charles provides plenty of canonical basis for getting into dangerous situations because he thinks he can handle them, though.

After his visit to Taos, Charles starts investigating the Academy, and eventually contacts Dewey again to discuss a "trial run." The experiments they're running (see the first half of this fic) interest him, and he's certain he can get out if things start getting bad.

Of course, by the time things start getting bad, they're so bad that he can't get out. The Academy won't let him simply walk out in the state he's in, and he can't tesser out -- tessering requires knowing where you are, and where you're going, and the drugs have screwed up his brain chemistry to the point where he's almost perpetually disoriented (the planet is tilting too far).

The first six months of his stay at the Academy are more or less described in the above fic. The people running the Academy want to maximize his psychic potential; they want to use him to listen to people, to the world, to the universe, to the stars. People, though, are a lot louder than most of the universe, and certainly louder than all the stars except the Sun. They've also done some research on him in a purely physical sense, trying to determine what makes him different from other humans. Mostly this has been imaging, not surgery, though there might have been a brain biopsy or so in there.

After six months, Dewey was removed from the project because he was becoming more and more vocal about how terrible it is. Shortly afterwards, Charles was moved out of the Academy to another facility -- or maybe the Academy simply came under new management, as it were. It doesn't make much difference.

Charles doesn't spend so much time listening anymore -- at least, not in sessions. Those mental blocks have been taken down; the chances of them going back up again are slim. But that's not his work anymore.

The Academy gives him problems involving fifth-dimension physics to solve, and tells him that they're "largely theoretical." Of course, it's kind of useless to lie to a psychic. In an ordinary human, even a very good mental block will have chinks. The first few times they tried to get him to solve these "theoretical" problems, though, he panicked. They eventually decided that memories of a number of impossible things -- the Mrs. W's, going Within, the farandolae's Deepening -- were pointing his moral compass in a direction they didn't want.

What followed was an extremely unpleasant few months in which most of Charles' memories of pre-Academy life were suppressed or explained away. There may have been surgical modification at this point -- certainly his hair is a lot shorter now, as if it's been shaved off and has been regrowing.




The two phases of the Academy have used a number of different drugs to get his mind into the shape they wanted. (I don't want to think about what they've done to the poor guy's liver, not to mention the rest of his body.) There's also the distinct possibility that they're testing new substances on him.

Phase 1:
~Alprazolam (for sedation, when things get overwhelming)
~Acetylcholine (a neuromodulater that affects how information is passed between neurons)
~LSD (The US Gov't's favorite "What does this do to the brain?" drug)
~Several experiments with traditional mind-alterers like mescaline

Phase 2:
~Caffeine (old-fashioned make-the-brain work faster drug, in concentrated doses)
~Methaqualone (for sedation; stronger than what Phase 1 used because he's built up a tolerance, not to mention that his own inner conflict creates higher levels of anxiety and more freak-outs)
~Further experimentation with neuromodulaters


Charles can seem coherent on some of these drugs, especially the neuromodulators and stimulants -- they mimic, to varying degrees, the mental blocks he would put up for himself. Just because he sounds coherent doesn't mean he's operating on the same level everyone else is, though (I wouldn't want to listen to his head when he's medicated). Furthermore, those states of mind are when he's least himself and most the Academy's.

When the drugs wear off, he's much closer to the same world as everyone else -- but then his psychic blocks are down, and he has to deal with the sensory overload that comes with that.




*eyes that last bit* I may be going over the top and making him unplayable with all this. Maybe I'll just handwave "He's on drugs! He's 'sane' when he's drugged up and River-ish when he's not" and forget about science. Works okay for Joss.
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What's the worst thing someone could do?
Hate.

What's the worst thing someone could do to you?
To me, personally? Trap me.

What's the worst thing that could happen to you?
Annihilation.

What's the worst thing someone could say about a person?
That they were worthless.

What's the best thing someone could say about a person?
That the person loved, and was loved.

Are men and women basically different?
In what sense? Physically, of course. Emotionally and mentally -- sure, to a certain degree, bearing in mind cultural context. But at a most basic level, everyone's just a person.

Which is better, to be a woman or to be a man?
[laugh] I've never been a woman, so how can I say? I'm pretty sure it's neither, though.

What can men do that women can't do?
Again, obviously there are physical differences. Men can . . . well, in today's world, men can do a lot more than women. We still get the best jobs, for instance.

[smile] But nobody holds doors for us.

What can women do that men can't do?
Give birth, which is an important enough physical difference that it bears mentioning.

Is it possible to change genders?
. . . That's an odd question. I'm inclined to say no.


How old is old enough to have sex?
In a perfect world, whenever both partners are emotionally mature enough to understand, consent, and deal with the potential consequences. I don't know how old that might be.

In this world, on the other hand, anything younger than about fifteen seems ill-advised to me.

Is it wrong to have sex if you're unmarried?
No, not if it's there's an emotional commitment.

Is it wrong to have sex with someone other than your spouse if you're married?
Yes. You've promised to be faithful, and breaking that promise is wrong.

Is it wrong to have sex with a person of the same gender?
[long, thoughtful pause] Have you heard of something called AIDS? It stands for Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome. Until last year they were calling it GRID -- Gay Related Immune Deficiency, and before that it was "gay cancer." Some people are claiming it's a punishment from God for having sex with a person of the same gender.

But I can't believe that. For one thing, I don't believe disease is a punishment from God, not any sort of disease. What can a six-year-old child have done to deserve a deadly illness?

Sorry, I'm getting off track. Is it wrong to have sex with a person of the same gender, right? Obviously some people think so. But, well, if you love each other, how can it be wrong?

Is it wrong to have sex with a person of a different race (or a different intelligent non-human species)?
. . . You're joking, right?

Different species seems ill-advised, even assuming biological compatibility, unless both parties are clear on what they're getting into.

Is it wrong to have more than one sexual partner at the same time?
I think so. How can you be committed to your partner if you're splitting your attention?

Is it wrong to have sex with someone you don't love?
Yes.


What are the responsibilities of a mother toward a child?
To raise it -- make sure its needs are met -- and then to provide a moral and emotional base for the child.

What are the responsibilities of a father toward a child?
Same answer. To be there for the child.

What are the responsibilities of a child toward a parent?
When the time comes, a child has the responsibility to return his parents' care. Before that, though -- to show appreciation, to be a person worthy of his parents' love. To not abandon them.

Which should be more important to you, your parent or your child?
Your child.

Which should be more important to you, your parent or your spouse?
. . . I don't know. Spouse, I think, but I don't know.

Which should be more important to you, your child or your spouse?
Child.

Why aren't there any questions about siblings?

Is it wrong to have a child if you're unmarried?
Not if you're capable of caring for it -- financially and emotionally.

Is abortion wrong?
Yes. Except in some fairly specific cases.

Is contraception wrong?
No.


Is there one true religion?
[laughs] Just one? Of course not.

Does a deity or deities exist?
Oh, certainly.

How important is it to believe in a deity or deities?
That depends on how much you want from them, I suppose.

How important is it to actively practice your religion?
Define religion. [Religion, defined as an organized belief system.] I can't make a blanket statement on that. For me, personally -- well [laughing] I don't really have a specific religion at the moment. I have a set of beliefs, and it's very important to me follow those beliefs, but none of them involve organized rites or specific practices.

Does magic exist?
Define magic. [Power from a supernatural source.] Supernatural, meaning above nature, or other than normal, right? I mean, in that case, magic is simply power that we can't explain yet. Right? And that certainly exists. The binding forces of an atom are still a mystery, and some of their properties probably always will be.

But . . . [thoughtful] There are some things in the universe that no amount of science will ever be able to explain.

Yes, magic exists.

Is practicing magic wrong?
No more than practicing anything else is. If it's used for evil purposes, then yes.


Is killing always wrong?
Yes. But sometimes it's necessary.

Is war always wrong?
Yes. And I don't think there are many cases where you could claim that it's truly necessary.

How old is old enough to fight in a war?
When one is emotionally mature enough to understand what's going on. Eighteen's the legal age, but I'm not sure that's old enough for most people.

Is rape always wrong?
Yes.

Is torture always wrong?
Yes.

Is theft always wrong?
I can think of circumstances where it wouldn't be. [wry smile] Fire from the gods.

Is slavery wrong?
Yes.

Is lying wrong?
Yes, but I can think of circumstances where it would be necessary, or where it might be the lesser evil.

Is swearing wrong?
[grin] If it is, my roommate and I are in trouble.
thisfatefulhour: (A small solemn smile)
[A few weeks ago, Charlie gave Charles an invitation.

Tonight, arrangements having been made, Charles takes her up on it, and she brings him to Taos, where there are introductions, memories, and rather a lot of poetry quotations.]
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Based on how River's reacted to Charles and some of the things Charlie's told him, Charles is going to be very careful to lock down some memories: specifically, his own invitation to the Academy, some of his more unpleasant memories of the Ecthroi, and his memories of Camazotz. Canonically, he can keep people out entirely -- the man with red eyes says "You know perfectly well why. You've shut your mind entirely to me. The other two can't. I can get in through the chinks." -- but Charles thinks being totally unreadable could be as disconcerting as being entirely open.

Most anything else from canon is fair game, especially stuff from A Swiftly Tilting Planet; Zyll and Zylle and all the Zillahs are going to be on his mind, along with the people he went Within.

Emotionally, he's curious, excited, and a little bit wondering at the whole experience. He's never been around so many psychics at once, and the goodmind is awesome.

As for what he's going to be reading from them -- as a rule, Charles doesn't go looking for specific thoughts unless given a reason. He reads emotions pretty much automatically, though, especially strong ones. I'm not sure how much the Academy kids broadcast, but it's probably safe to say that Charles won't actively listen unless he's really having trouble following a line of thought.
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I love it when these things just fall in my lap.

2. Love Unites

Scientists tell us that without the presence of the cohesive force amongst atoms that comprise the globe of ours, it would crumble to pieces and we would ceas to exist; and even as there is a cohesive force in blind matter, so must there be in all things animate,and the name for that cohesive force among animate beings is love. We notice it between father and son, between brother and sister, friend and friend. But we have to learn to use that force among all that lives. In the use of it consists out knowledge of God.

3. Love is Life

. . . It is my firm belief that it is love that sustains the earth. There only is life where there is love. Life without love is death. Love is the reverse of the coin of which the obverse is truth.
thisfatefulhour: (Have you ridden the wind before?)
Mkay, so. There's this Thing, bouncing around in my head -- a very small Thing, but a persistent Thing, that ties back to some thoughts of my own and a few from other people.

The Thing is, simply: When Charles goes back to school in the fall, he'll at some point be approached by someone from the government, wih an offer. Part of me wants the offer to be a familiar one -- there's a school for talented young people like him, you see . . .

Now, it isn't the Academy. There's no can-toi running this place, no bluehands. It's a government-run program intended to conduct research on and with people like Charles, who are . . . using more potential than most humans, to answer questions like what's causing them? and what are their limits? and what can they tell us?

It's not the Academy. But one day, far, far down the road, it might be. Charles' canon shows us that things can change, and change drastically. Remember that Projection?

Anyway. The thing about the Thing is, it means a touch of canon-melding, obviously, and with the DT/FF 'verse, no less, which is all extensive and amazing. 'S not something I want to do without approval from the canonmelders.

(ETA: Batyathetoon (11:01:38 PM): Hang on a sec. Do the canons actually need to mesh? -- I mean, as in be the same world / sheaf of worlds?
Batyathetoon (11:01:43 PM): aroo, cam
UndeadWriter1488 (11:01:52 PM): Not necessarily, no.
SweeneyAgonistes (11:02:02 PM): ...
UndeadWriter1488 (11:02:04 PM): I just like the Academy/psychic!teen connection. *grin*
scuba soph (11:02:36 PM): I mean - yeah. He could just be being recruited into his verse's not-quite-yet-equivalent to the Academy.
Vivien529 (11:02:54 PM): Echos of worlds - that works well
UndeadWriter1488 (11:03:13 PM): It does, rather, Viv.
Zebosity (11:03:21 PM): Cross-universe resonance is, as I recall, canon for both series, anyhow

So. Less of a canonmeld and more of a supertextual . . . thing. I lack the vocabulary.)

If adding another canon to the mix would be too complicated or somehow prohibitive, no biggie. ^.^ I have a backup plan. But. Thoughts?
thisfatefulhour: (Default)
May 29, 1982 - Speaking of ways, pet )

(by the way, there is such a thing as a tesseract)
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